Tell me what you think. Please.

If you never meant it, you shouldn't have said it. When you say something like that, to somebody like me it's not going to be taken lightly. Sure what we had was never really public, but that never stopped you from saying it. I was the first one to say it, but you kept it going. You would say it in text messages, with the dorky little smiley face after it, and you would say it in person between kisses. Of course I was going to believe you when you said it, it would have been foolish not to, but now I realize I was foolish for believing you. You could have just told me that you were going to use me for whatever you could get. That would have made all of this easier, but you didn't. Now I'm just sitting here alone, while you're halfway across the country having the time of your life. I'm just sitting reading those stupid text messages that I saved in my phone because they made me smile. They all say the same thing, "Goodnight I love you(:" every time I read one I want to throw my phone at the wall. I go to delete them, but before I push the button I get a flash of hope that maybe you'll take back what you said and that you do love me. That's all I want you to say, keep your apologies just tell me that you love me and want me back. Until the day you realize that, I'll be right here where you left me. Waiting. For you to tell me you were wrong, or say that you love me, or that you met this new girl, who I would just simply LOVE. Who cares what you say, I just need more closure than "Idk as a friend?" Maybe someday, maybe not. Maybe you'll come back, maybe you wont. Maybe I'll get over you, maybe I'll think of you everyday. You can hope either way, all you want, for any of those situations, only time will tell. You were a mistake, but you were the best mistake I could have made. I loved you at one point, at one point you were my everything. But to you, everything we did was meaningless. So for now I'll just wait to move on. You'll be the first to get over it, that's a given, but when I get over it it will be as if the world as I know it, is coming to an end. I'll realize someday how stupid it is for me to continue longing for you. To be honest that day can't come soon enough. I'm ready now to be over you, I'm ready now to forget everything we've done. You've passed that point already, so why haven't I?

So tell me, do I keep going or is it done? What should I change? What should I do to make it better? :D
~Kari